Frustration

For some reason this week seems to have been a rough one. I am feeling unbelievable frustration.

I'm frustrated that my life is on hold and I can't do what I want when I want. I'm frustrated that I'm tired all of the time. I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired.

My schedule isn't my own. I have to plan everything around how I'm feeling and what appointments I have and what drugs I have to take. I can't work. I feel useless.

This frustration seems to have led me to have less patience that I normally do. It's not like I had a whole lot of patience to begin with!

I can't seem to handle anything this week without spontaneously bursting into tears. My poor family.

I've just had enough....and man I've still got a long way to go.

Okay - the pity party is over now. Thanks for listening.

Love CJ